Each week in The Wisdom of Change blog series, I share the original artwork and unpack the insights and meaning behind one of the 44 cards in The Wisdom of Change oracle deck.
This week’s card is 26 Commitment
It’s been one of those pivotal days today. Yesterday delivered an explosive argument with my husband that left me scratching my head and wondering how we reached that level of miscommunication. Years ago, it would have been catastrophic; my ego would have stopped at nothing to emerge victorious. I would have surfaced from our fight exhausted and tear stained. We’d have patched things up, but I’d have felt remorseful, confused by my actions, unsettled in our relationship and none the wiser from our time in combat. A little piece of me would have died and I would not know why.
Somewhere in the past decade, I decided that this kind of interaction with the world around me had to stop. When I was ready to listen and remained open to the answers available to me, I was able to ‘do the work’ of profound personal change. My inner wisdom guided me to break the cycle of unresourceful relationships, to bid farewell to the unending stream of self-punishment, to see that ‘working hard for no reward’ is not a woman’s destiny, and that feeling ‘less than’ and ‘wondering what life is all about’ is not why we are here.
It meant that I recognised my argument with my husband yesterday as the lovingly designed lesson it was meant to be; not an invitation to descend into confusion, angst and drama. The things my ego so dearly wanted to level at him was the work I needed to do with myself. The journey towards raised consciousness is often bittersweet!
I retreated to my room with adrenaline coursing through my veins. I let myself hear the angry voices within. I resisted projecting them outwards where they would never find resolution. I let my unrest search in vain for people and circumstances to blame. I indulged the internal ranting as long as it needed until it started to calm down. I nursed and ministered to myself like I would a toddler having a temper tantrum. Finally, my accusations realised they could not reasonably blame anyone or anything for the way my ego felt.
And there is was; in the stillness of giving myself space, I was reminded to recommit to my own desires; to the things I have promised myself and the projects I have been working on. I rested and allowed myself to access what I have learnt. I selected a book from the shelf and accepted its advice to ‘centre my thoughts on the thing that I want’. I picked up a pencil and wrote on the back page ‘my first published book’.
This morning I woke to a LinkedIn message from Sibella publications; ‘You, your website and awesome message rings clear the kind of positive energy and integrated wholeness our readership audience would love to hear more about. You can do this!’
Each woman’s life purpose continues to call her towards her highest good. Today I listened and took intuitive action. I realised why the theme of this weeks card is Comittment. I recommittedt to myself today and wrote these words. I intend these words be of service to you too.
I hope you’ve enjoyed this week’s connection to your inner wisdom.
As always, I’d love to hear your comments below.