Each week in The Wisdom of Change blog series, I share the original artwork and unpack the insights and meaning behind one of the 44 cards in The Wisdom of Change oracle deck.
This week’s card is 3: Let Go
And let go….
As I write this blog, I’m smiling to myself at the perfection of this card for me today.
You see, I’ve gotten my knickers in a knot about starting this blog. I kept putting the start date back, fussing about this and that thing; the order of the cards to write about each week, the logistics of the software to create the blog and send it live, the rhythm of my writing practice and allocation of time to make amendments that will ensure I hit the weekly deadline. I’ve exhausted myself with all this ‘drama’.
Can you relate?
I’ve further ‘complicated’ the process by linking the blog going live to a weekly video I’ve committed to make for my private deck owners Facebook group. Not only do I have a blog to write, but I must also look half decent to get myself in front of my laptop camera and share some behind the scenes insights about each card with the Facebook group members. What if I look old, fat, stressed, haggard, unprofessional? What if the lighting is not right etc, etc.
Frankly I’ve spent so long in this state of analysis paralysis that I’ve bored myself with my constant excuses and inner turmoil. All that I have to share with the world is backed up and causing a block to my creative flow. It’s showing up as shoulder ache, headache, inability to shift unwanted body fat and a gnawing away at my self-confidence.
I sink into the wisdom of the card. The illustration today looks like a huge wave to me. A reminder to go with the flow; not to fight the tide. There is serenity in those beautiful pink and blue inks and although the waves are high, I don’t feel fearful anymore; just a deep need for creative self-expression and a desire to share my perspective with the world.
All is in divine order say the words on the card; The more you seek to control, the greater the fear becomes and that fear in turn will control you.
Oh yes! Now I remember.
Today I chose not to be controlled by my fear. Today I chose to post. To post the first weekly blog in a series of 44 which explore the themes of each card I have created in The Wisdom of Change oracle deck.
I let go and trust that something greater than my own fear is coming my way. I let go of my attachments to the ‘how’ and focus instead on the ‘what’ and the ‘why’.
The what is this blog.
The why is because I can no longer procrastinate. I can no longer be held hostage by my own inner doubts and excuses. I desire to write, to share, to be seen.
I’d love to know if you’ve reached this point with something in your own life; if you’ve noticed it showing up as a physical problem or a tiresome inner noise and if it’s causing you emotional discontent, mental stress or spiritual unrest.
Because these things happen when we try to hang on; whether that be to a fear, a story, an excuse, a reason, a technicality, a hang up or any other form of holding yourself back. We can hang on tight, break our fingernails; clench our fists and dig our nails uncomfortably into the palms of our hands…
Or we can just let go.
Today I chose to trust and let go.
How about you?
I hope you’ve enjoyed this week’s connection to your inner wisdom.
As always, I’d love to hear your comments below.